(Poems) Old Selves I Have Been by Glenys Livingstone Ph.D.

Poem 1, May 26th 1980

Planets away

I’ve travelled light years from my mother’s womb

Where are you my mother?

I need your love – I want to return to you

But oh I don’t. I don’t.

…

I have travelled into myself

into the depths

into the universe

into the stars

to that heart

to that black hole 

my own home

your home is somewhere near.

…

“I am the mirror – blastula reflected in the newest nova.”[1]

…

My home – I am coming.

I am coming unto you.

oOo

Poem 2, May 26th, 1980

My life –

…

I hold it to the light

I feel it

its shape

its corners

its smooth surfaces

its colour

…

what is it

how is it

this gem

…

who can cut it?

only me

…

I hold it in my hands

I feel it in the dark

         as a blind person

         I sense it.

…

Discovering, seeking

         remembering(?)

…

My skin absorbs it

         and is it.

oOo

Poem 3, May 30th, 1980

This is a profound time my friend

         a stopping point

         a period of life complete

         a road we’ve shared seen through

         a time of passing, of death

A process, an era

         turning its last turns

A winter, a death

the last leaves falling.

…

We cry 

we feel pain

we sense deeply the ebb and the flow

Each soul bared and touched

sensing itself.

Lonely yes, but pure and free.

…

So long have I longed

not knowing.

…

Now I am doing it

sailing

to be free.

…

I am doing it

See how I spread my wings

See how I glide

See how I turn

…

Rising

         Rising

                  I am flying.

…

This life

         how much is it worth?

…

         what can it?

         how can it?

…

I sense it small. 

         against the greatness of the sky.

oOo

References:

Morgan, Robin. Going Too Far: The Personal Chronicle of a Feminist. NY: Vintage Books, 1978.


NOTES:

[1] Robin Morgan, Going Too Far, p.314.


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