[Author’s Note: The Kolo, the round dance and to be in the Circle. It’s the archetypal movement of Hands and Feet.
Bozaloshtsh: Bird goddess and snake goddesses of regeneration – fates, and destiny – has the suffering Baba Yaga-Mother Nature. Slavic- with long hair and fairy-like stature who announces the imminent death within the domovoi by crying beneath its window.]
As I met with the grandmothers over the years, I noticed a pattern they repeated often during our gatherings. The women’s worn aprons were used to wipe teary eyes and to clean dirty hands from labor; this universal gesture among them symbolized their trauma and hatred, but also their comforting and healing. During my visits to Bosnia, I would often sit next to one Ahmica grandmother who had barely spoken since the slaughter of her family on April 16th. After three long years of sitting next to this woman who was cloaked in silence, she once reached over, grasped my hands in hers, and sobbed. She gathered her apron and dabbed away my tears and then hers. No words were spoken, but as I looked down at the wet but clean apron, stained with tears, I felt the love she had for her lost ones who were now in their graves. My tears soaked into the apron along with hers. I was startled to feel a lack of hatred in this woman—a complete absence of desire for retaliation or revenge after the loss of many members of her immediate family. I looked up into her face. She spoke as if she had heard my thoughts, saying, “I think of other grandmothers having such a loss, and I cannot hate what I am,” she stated.
A beautiful and important story for all of us in these troubled times. Thank you for sharing it.